Hi there 👋

 "Oo nga pala, may blog pa ako. 😅"

That's what I remembered while staring at the ceiling, while lying on my camping bed resting after doing some household chores today.

My domain name is due to renew na rin pala.

And I'm guilty of not fully utilizing my website these past few years.

I've been naughty, I know.

I procrastinated a lot.

I was totally preoccupied.

Lots of drafts.

Lots of experiences and travels backed in my gallery and cloud storage.

Lots of updates to share but I don't know where to start, or if I should even share (baka masamain na naman ng iba).

These past few years, especially these past few months, I felt like there are people behind my back, waiting to celebrate for my misery.

Like if I share something that made me happy, they will be there to be bitter at me, finding faults about it, or wishing bad about me.

Parang ako pa ang dapat mag-adjust para hindi sumama ang loob nila kapag nakita nila.

Kaya minamarapat ko na lang na ifilter, or sometimes, not post at all. Kahit gustung gusto ko.

But it made me ask myself, why should I?

Bakit kailangan ko mag-adjust para sa iba?

Kung sila nga rin dyan ginagawa kung ano ang gusto nila.

Kaso hindi ko rin nasagot. 😅

I wish I was like them, na madali lang magpost ng kung anu-ano without thinking what others might think and feel kapag nakita nila.

But I still couldn't push myself to do it.

Parang mas pinipili ko na lang maging peaceful and quiet.

So yeah.

That's my excuse. Haha

I had this thought, btw, na gusto ko sanang sabihin to someone, but sa palagay ko baka mamisunderstood niya dahil real talk na to. 🫣

I want to tell that person na everyone has their own battle to face.

Mukha lang masasaya yang mga yan sa social media pero behind the scene ay may mga pinagdadaanan din yang mga yan.

You may have friends who can listen to what you're going through, but they can only lend their ears and give you advice.

In the end, it is you who will have to face whatever you're going through.

If you're still running in circles dyan sa pinagdadaanan mo despite all the advices given to you na hindi mo sinunod because you think "they don't understand you", then you should ask yourself this: "Is it really them who don't understand you, or is it you who don't understand them?"

Nevertheless, whatever situation you're at, it was your choice.

You chose it.

So why are you still not happy?

Why are you running around in circles?

Aren't you happy with the choice you've made? Why?

[Succeeding texts have been deleted due to it being  unsolicited advice 😅]

Pero in summary, ang gusto ko lang sabihin sa taong ito is that we, your friends, are still here.

We still can listen to your rants, kahit paulit ulit, but it's a give and take. You can rant at us, but you can't stop us at ranting at you as well kahit paulit ulit din kami sa pinapayo namin sayo. Sa huli naman kahit matigas ang ulo mo at di mo sinusunod ang mga payo sayo, we got your back pa rin naman. 👐

In actuality, ikaw na ang napagod kakarinig ng advice. That's probably why nagdadalawang isip ka ng magsabi ulit, hindi dahil sa sinasabi mong pagod na sila, kundi dahil alam mo na ang sasabihin nila at ayaw mo ng marinig yon ulit. Pagod ka na sa paulit ulit na advice. 🫣

Dahil salungat yun sa gusto mong marinig.

Pero base sa mga kinwento mo sa akin, I can say that you are so lucky.

You are surrounded by friends who care for you.

Because only real friends can talk real to you.

Kung kahit sa office nyo ay nirireal talk ka na rin, then you are more lucky na pati rin pala sa office ay you've made real officemates/friends who care for you as well na hindi ka sinusugarcoat.

I hope you treasure that and not take that for granted by throwing shades. 🙏

Tulad ng nasabi ko kanina, everyone has their own battle, me included.

We can give time for you, but we can't fight your battle for you, because we also have our battles to tend to.

Damayan ang kaya nating gawin, but in the end, it's only us who can face our own fight and win it.

Ika nga ni Pareng Tyler ng TwentyOne pilots, no one else is dealing with your demons, meaning maybe defeating them could be the beginning of your meaning, friend.

Your friends got your back. You just have to help yourself and face it. 🙂

Osha, tapos na ang pahinga ko at balik realidad na rin ulit ako rito.

Hindi rin madali ang pinagdadaanan ko rito, I'm leaving my comfort zone and I'm at unknown territory, trying to start life anew, but I know, I may have few, but my people got my back as well.

He's ☝️got my back too.

So laban lang. 💪

Choose what makes you happy.

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